the other night, i skipped dinner, and so woke up really hungry the next morning. it was because i had to do the homework of my landlady's kid. a few weeks ago, i found my rice cooker on the fritz, and was really dissaponted because i myself barely got to use it. my landlady's mother had worn it out! still, a few months ago, i found my non-stick frying pan, which i loved so much, in an awful state of rusting. it was completely useless, and had to go with the trash. i just can'nt believe this. i've been living in that boarding house for a year now, and the people there have been abusing me since.
here's more. my land lady, named tetet, has been borrowing money from me like i had lots of it. i'm willing to help her, and lend cash, but i only think it's unfair that she never seems to remember paying me back. i'd always have to remind her --which i did-- and still get my money back only after a couple more weeks. her mother, named tessie, whose personality you wouldn't say agreeable, always buzzed around the boarding house like she owned it. once, i went home to sulan kudarat for the semestral break. when i got back, my electric fan was missing, and later the maid told me that tessie took it o her house in sandawa. i'm still angered by the memory of it, though i got my fan back in room now. and what makes me most anxious, is that they have benefited from me and my stuff --ofen wihout my consent-- and still they spoke ill of me behind my back. they've been telling the maid (and God knows whoelse) that i was selfish, and was abusive. in pure honesty, they were kind of describing thmselves!
this is totally unfair. it kind of reminds me of that soap "Mara, Clara" that juddy anne "juday" santos did. oh, how i hated the villiany of clara, who never seemd to get enough of seeing Mara suffer. and how i hated Mara too, for just whimpering around whenever clara did her wrong. so unbelievable how patient and forgiving mara was, it annoyed me.
sometimes, i just couldn't contain my rage when i'm reminded of tessie and tetet's partership in crime, and having me for a victim. but a lot of times, i blame myself too. i know that they are the kontrabidas (villians) of ruthless evil in my telesrye-like life in the boarding house. but i have also been the weak and ever passive Mara. which tells me, that it was part my fault why i have been abused to this extent. maybe they wouldn't have gone that far if i had been strong enough to resist their requests they've professionally disguised with friendliness. as much as i disliked the unrealisticly "good character" played by juday, i will get up on my knees, and defend my rights. i should let it be known to them tat i'm no sissy, and that i'm not ready to get my dignity stepped on.
though she had been spineless in the beginning, mara got to her senses in the end part of te story, and she finall fought back. i remember that episode i loved so much, that when mara spewed sraight to clara's face wet laundry. the villian's face ended up soaked and soapy. though it didn't totally stop her from being evil, at least it told her to back off a little. I guess i'm gonna do that to. But of course not literally! (It's really tempting, though.)
