there's something missing

i don't know if i'm just exaggerating all
the stuff that's been happenig to me lately,
but i really feel so empty and senseless
sometimes.
more often than not, i get myself into thinking
that something is actually missing in my life.
or is it someone?
i will be 18 this year. but my parents treat me
like a two-year old. they kept on reminding me
the things have to do, the things i should not
do, the things i should encourage in my life, the
things i should avoid, and stuff like that.
of course, what i really mean is that they're
so strict when it comes to boys.
i guess they just don't want me to get hurt, or
ruin the plans of a wonderful future for me.
but someties, i could oly wish they'd become a little
more lenient concerning that part of my youth.
i'm not saying i want to be totally liberated from
their guiding. all i really want is
some sort of peek-through, to enable me to see what's
on the other side of the fence.